2017 First Post

It's been really long since my last post..
it's already end of July 2017..
Not sure what happened to 2016 as there wasn't any entry for the whole year..
hahah..
so little update on myself..
finally stepped out from my comfort zone...
resigned and entered another industry..
when i made this decision.
not many actually supported me..
to them ..
there is no reason for me to give up my previous job which is a professional and good prospect job..
and where the bosses put so much trust on me..
i knew that..
the only thing which dragged me so long was the bosses...
i knew my decision might put on so much disappointment to them..
but if not now then when?
tat time i had came to the extent that i couldn't take up the job responsibilities anymore..
from executive to assistant manager in 4.5 years was not easy..
when i decided to leave..
i told myself i want those people to regret what they have said..
but now seems like i palm my own face more..hahah
still lost in the mist of life...
attended few personal development courses which i think is good..
thankyou so much to my bosses who rooting for me all these years..
oh ya...
purchased my first property this year..
not sure how i make it..
and do not want to think how im going to make it..
the only thing...
fake it before i make it..
that's it  :)
Happy 2017

Motivation

Another wasted Saturday rotting at home. .
I'm not that kind of girl who can really enjoy tv programme whole day as guilty conscious  hits me hard..
I used to have some house chores or some readings to lessen my guilt..
But today is definitely not the thing..
I completely do nothing throughout the day ...

Actually today is my sister's birthday. .
That's why I have reserved all my time in case there are any outings with family..
And I'm definitely a morning person..
Waking up early wanna go breakfast but seeing others still sleeping soundly has turned me mad..
At certain time I feel sleeping is a waste of time..
Why can't you people jus wake up early to hv a proper breakfast ?
We can back to have afternoon nap aren't we?
Also planning to have a good dinner with the family for sis birthday celebration but end up dine at food court which beyond our normal practice as my trouble makers aunt and uncle were back..

I'm having another silent night in my comfort zone..
There are lots of things across my mind..
Today is a very good day I guess..
Can easily see many wedd photos when I browse through the social media..
Aaahhh..
Many of my frens have entered a new stage of life..
Don't get me wrong as I'm not in a rush yet..
Of cos I do wanna have one if I have..
But now definitely not as I don't have any crash right now..
To love someone is a very beautiful thing..
I take it very seriously. .
If I have found that serious person...
Why not? Heheh..
But right now I see personal development more important than anything else..

Me and my colleague were invited for a dinner by client yesterday. .
He is a very nice guy ...
And ya..
A story - man..
He tells us lots of his experience. .His life.. His studies and career..
I have to say..
Not an easy life and I respect him..
And he is only 3 years older than me..
His persistency to live at his best really motivates me..
He came from a poor family ( I assume as he mentioned his dad was a rubber cutter , sorry If I'm wrong )..
After complete his diploma at local U..
He wanna pursue his engineering studies in overseas but his financial not allowed him to..
He thought of lots of alternatives. .
Guess what he did?
He actually sent out 200 over copies of letter to engineering company to request to get sponsorship for his degree studies at overseas..
And as expected majority rejected and some din even reply..
When he almost give up..
One of the companies contact him and ask for interview. .
And finally agreed to sponsor his studies with the terms to have him to bond with the company for 7 years. .
Hmm.. it's cool right..
His hardwork finally paid off..
He is doing well now..
A very hardworking and aggressive one..
As his hometown in pahang..
Most of the time he is alone in penang ..
And therefore he has lots of time..
He signed up for MBA courses and manage to complete it in time..
He mentioned that the MBA time was really his hardest time..
To have his work and studies together..
He said his hobby is reading...
He doesn't want to waste his hobby..
And now he is studying PHD..
In my mind I am wondering how people do so ?
I think I have too easy life during the past...
His story really motivates me alot especially from personal development..
He has very strong determination which make him a successful person today..
And I think I can do it too 💪💪

深夜一 po

很爱夜深。。
总觉得这个时候的自己最真实。。
四周围好安静。。
仿佛我就活在自己的世界里。。
也偏偏在这个时候。。
最爱胡思乱想。。

就快25了。。
人生已过四分一。。
回头一看。。
过去还是精彩的。。
遗憾。。。
还是有的。。

看看四周的朋友。。
大家都应该过得不错。。
结婚生子。。
拼事业。。
买房子买车子。。
出国旅行。。

我 。。
还在人生的交叉路徘徊。。
我迷失了自己。。
好像这不是原来的自己。。
也不是自己想要的生活。。
是哪里出错了。。

这问题的确困扰我许久。。
久久未找到答案。。
面对身边很爱打击我的人。。
我开始怀疑好朋友在那儿?
也问了自己是不是一个很好的朋友。。

太多太多的疑问。。
找不到答案。。

Letter to myself

Be brave be strong be tough..
You have nothing to lose..
Remember that it's never too late to start from zero..
Time is precious..
Experience is crucial..
Now you know guilt is the most painful lesson..
Remember the feeling of guilt..
Remember how painful it is..
Learn from the mistake..
Think twice before you decide ..
If it's worth then go for it..
There's always miracle out there..
Do good think good believe good..
Your future is on your hand..
Smile 😄😄

Sad case of a fatty gal

At the gym room right now..
Finish 4km walks or run not sure..
Aiii..
Abit depressed as I'm the fattest in the gym room at the moment..
Why some ppl can be so skinny one?
Where has the food gone?
Damn emo right now..
Still reluctant to leave as the skinny ppl haven't leave..
Sad case..

Great Eastern Colour My Heart Run 2015

Jiang Jiang..
It's us looking cute there..
Obviously this is a blog post of Great Eastern Colour My Heart Run 2015 that was hold last Sunday ( 19 April 2015 )..

It's all started with opening speech by Chief Minister of Penang..
At the same time, participants were given different colourings..
They then started to throw the colouring at each other..
Luckily sunglasses and mask were provided to prevent eyes irritation and also a chok..

Although they named it a run..
but i could hardly see ppl actually run ..
Majority of them walk all the way and have fun playing with colours..
Of course we did the same thing too...

there are several stops throughout the run for participants to collect colouring..
One colour at each stop..
But before you can collect the colouring..
you would be attacked badly by the crew..

Not to mention there's a milo giveaway along the UPR ..
There's a really big crowd that i need to squeezed in in order to get the drinks..
So angry in the end i gt the mocha flavour instead of original milo..
I love Milo..
Gimme Gimeeee..

Us drinking mocha milo

There's also ambulance along the run way standby-ing in case of any emergency..

So we manage to finish the 5km ''run''..

You can collect medal at the finishing point..

But no one really guard for it..

May be you just walk in from nowhere with colour run t shirt also can get the medal i guess..

You can also get bananas to replenish your energy yo..

Us showing off the medal

Us with great eastern lion

Us in instaphoto frame

There's a lot of booth set up at the gather point..

Participants can get a free printed insta photo by uploading photo to instagram and hash tag #livegreatrun..

also ..

claimed a free face towel from another booth by showing them the printed insta photo..

It's was truly a great experience for me..

definitely something to remember..

There's saying goes..

Better Do Than Regret..

There's a friend of mine saying that the colouring is dirty..

poisonous..

hard to remove bla.. 

i dont really google for the material used for the colouring..

but i dont think such a big event can be successfully held with the use of poisonous colouring..

and to further elaborate..

the colouring on body is not that hard to remove as most ppl think..

im quite clean already after the first bath ahh...

so..whatever reason..

just go for it..

i always wanted to create special memory in my life..

i wanted to have something interesting to share with my children in future rather than boring working experience..

crazy or not..

good or bad..

it's a great memory to me..

This photo was taken after the ''run'' at yellow colour stop

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Lastly, attached favourite photo of ours ..

Very matchy colour

p/s : the t shirt had been thrown.. dunno how to wash ahh..

The Art of Friendship

There's many times in life people address each other as best friend...
But how many of them understand the definition of BEST..
I used to define BEST as the only one..
But later in time I realise this definition is very harsh...
How could we have only one best friend in life?

 

I couldn't measure A friend is the best or B friend is the best ..
It confuses me more when I have more than A & B.....

Proudly to say that I have really less hi bye friends..
Cause those hi bye friends will eventually evolve into close friends..or some even BEST friends..
Whenever I post pics at insta ...
Most of them I address as best friends but each time with different people...
It's not i dun understand  the term BEST..
But they just BEST in different ways..

 

I have one girlfriend that I really appreciate and I hope we can be the forever best friend..
She is the only one that I never calculate how much I have paid for her..
And how much she pays me back in return..
I don't care the budget I wanna spend for her birthday..
As long as I afford..
Because I know she worth it..
She is the only one that I will ask for help without hesitation..

and without thinking to repay her kindness..
I can share almost everything with her..

Because i know my secret is safe with her..
We seldom say nausea words to each other like dear.. darling.. or even best friend...
But deep inside our heart..
We know we are..
Time flies and she got married now ..

owns a very cute daughter..
She is getting busier and our bonding time gets lesser and lesser..
But I'm still trying my best to retain this friendship...
Because I know true friend is hard to find..

 

Another girl best friend that I have is truly fun..
I think I enjoy good food.. good life ever since we are friend...
We are born to be matchy partner..
We are match in almost everything..
She is my favourite partner in crime..
But of course I spent a lot and get really fat since we are close to each other...
We share many interest ...
But not to the extend that I can share everything with her yet...
Dunno why..
But I wanna keep her as my best life partner...

 

Best friend C is the one that whenever she feels sad or cry I will cry together with her..
I dunno why...
And she's the only friend that I often hug...
Whenever I see her I feel like hug her tight and wish to say dear, you have me...
I did a big mistake last time..

The guilt still with me ...
But now I'm glad that we are still friends..
She won't be seeing this..
But seriously..
I wanna tell her I will be there for you whenever you need me..

Forever .. and ever..

 

Best friend D..
I feel so needed whenever I'm with her..
I'm her best friend for sure..
Wherever we go..
She introduced me as her best friend..
She cries so much that I have accompanied her for so many times..
All these are priceless memories..
We both share the same idol..
And we know each other without saying a word..
I remembered for many times..
We cried.. and we called each other..
Without saying any words..
We just cry..
Needless to elaborate more..

A message for you..

I have been really good to you ..

and protect you..

No matter how you blame me..

I know you did...

but I never explain ..

Because I know you will understand me one day ..
Thanks for having me as your best friend...

 

Best friend E..
The most mischievous and problematic friend...
But very grateful to have her throughout my college life..
If not I would have skip many classes..
Thanks for pushing me to work harder..
And feed me food ...
You are very hateful..but cute too..
Thanks for all your silly action and I love my birthday celebrations that you have prepared for me for the past years..

 

BEST friends,
Thanks for being with me and all the great memories will be kept deep inside my heart forever. ..
Love 